The “Working Out Dilemmas” series of artworks and title is the result of an experience I had in 2018 in which I was experiencing frustration regarding a life issue and noticed the emotional state lingering while painting. Perhaps I was making art as a way to procrastinate from dealing with “Dilemmas”. I could feel the frustration in my brush strokes, as I pushed the pencil through wet paint. I noticed the intensified aggression and resulting textures, colors were bold, movements were swift, my heart was not relaxed. In a way I was distracted, part of me tossing materials around while somewhere in my mind loomed unresolved matters. Yet I persisted and pushed through it, not paying much attention to the work itself, just going thru the motions, releasing energy. At one point I decided to look more closely at what the hell I was doing and began to notice something. There was beauty in the chaotic expressions and my mind found an ease and joy assembling the patterns together into a kind of complementary juxtaposition. Sure enough at this point I was fully immersed in the process and unintentionally  had resolved matters by bringing the mind back into a state of equilibrium.